My Written Thoughts

 My orange cat has a crooked tail. Nobody knows how it happened. Maybe she was born that way, maybe it was an old injury. But the funny thing is, she doesn’t act like anything’s wrong with her. She runs, climbs, hunts lizards. To her, the crooked tail is just part of life. One evening, I was sitting at the computer, scrolling through old vlogs I’d made. Back then, I used to record everything. Grocery runs, playground trips, even the most ordinary days. Looking at those clips, I realized something. I wasn’t filming because the world wanted to see. I was filming because I wanted to remember. The crooked tail reminded me of that. Life doesn’t always turn out straight and polished. Sometimes it bends, sometimes it breaks. But just like my cat, we keep moving, keep living, keep finding joy in everyday life. Now when I hold my camera, I don’t think about “Is this exciting enough?” I think about “Will this moment matter to me one day?” Because maybe the stories worth keeping aren’...

Malays have long carried a fear, the idea that the Chinese will one day take over the country. Traumatized by the 13th May incident and with politicians further amplifying the notion during every election season, this belief became deeply rooted. It is repeated in family conversations, passed down through generations, and used as a convenient tool to divide Malaysians. But when we examine this narrative closely, it does not hold up. It is not reality. It is strategy. Let’s debunk it. Malaysia’s Parliament has 222 seats. To amend the Constitution or make any major changes, a government would need two thirds, which is 148 seats. In the 2018 general election, Pakatan Harapan, with DAP included, won 113. In 2022, they won 82. Both numbers were far short of 148. And no Chinese-majority party has ever, in the history of Malaysia, controlled Parliament on its own. The only way to form government has always been through coalitions that include Malay-led parties. Beyond numbers, the Constitutio...

Although I no longer post weekly vlogs, I still pick up the camera every now and then. I want to share how vlogging helped me grow socially and rebuild my confidence. For most of my life, I’ve been introverted. Crowds and social situations made me anxious, and I often felt like I didn’t quite fit in. Over the years, those feelings grew heavier, to the point where my confidence took a real hit. Speaking in front of people — or even being in a busy room — could trigger panic, sweating, and an overwhelming urge to escape. Then in 2018, I stumbled into vlogging. At first, it was just an experiment — a way to push myself into discomfort. I set myself a 50-vlog challenge, and by the time I hit my 50th, I realized I loved it. I kept going for years, posting regularly until 2023, when I slowed down. What I didn’t expect was the transformation. Vlogging forced me to step outside my shell, to speak up, and to share my voice openly. Over time, my confidence came back stronger than ever. Speaking ...