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There Is No Way I Was Born To Just Pay Bills And Die

I have been working steady jobs for almost 12 years now. Prior to that I was unemployed, messing around with friends, partying, loitering and just living life in vain. I should be happy now, right? Wrong. I mean, I AM happy being a family man and all, but i detest at the very idea of having to be at an office 9 hours a day, 5 days a week, for the rest of my miserable life serving a cause that I don't believe is ideal to me. I understand that everybody needs to work in order to survive. We all need to work to earn money to pay for our food, shelter, healthcare, security and such. However, by doing so, I don't believe we were meant to become 'slaves' in the process

9 hours a day may sound like a short amount of time considering there are 24 hours in a day. Exclude the 7 hour bedtime, you practically spend the whole day working and by the time you get home, you're left with just a few hours to spare before you hit the sack. So you spend your life working from Monday to Friday during the day, and there's not much room left to do anything else at night. All you could afford to do is rest anyway. You get your freedom only on Saturdays and Sundays, and they tell you that that is enough and that is okay. They tell you that it's a pretty good deal. But ask yourself, are you really free? Do we really have our freedom? Were we really meant to live like this? Every weekday, we are required to be there. We cannot be anywhere else. We cannot be late, we cannot be absent. We must, by all means, be there. Failing to do so will result in warnings and punishments and they might even cut it out of your salary or even worse, they fire you. You're a prisoner whether you'd like to admit it or not. Imprisoned and enslaved throughout a huge chunk of your day, everyday. Quality time with family is reduced to a minimum, if none at all.

So basically, we spend 5 days working and we get 2 days off to do whatever we like. And this goes on week after week, year after year and before we know it, we're already 60 and retiring. Only then it would be too late to ask "what the hell happened?","what did I actually do with my life?", "did I live life to the fullest?", "did I just work my life away?". I'm pretty sure when God created us, never did He intend for us to get stuck and imprisoned in this system of endless loop we call work. Mind you, this whole corporate world and office culture was created by man. We had our own ways before all of this, doing all sorts of businesses and none of them translates into becoming these zombie-like wage slaves. What we have now is a system designed to turn us into robots, just working selflessly towards the interest of a company. We are not seen as individual people but rather as assets or liability. Despite our dedication to the company, we will be replaced easily when the time comes.

Wouldn't you rather dedicate years of your efforts towards building something you love or towards a cause you truly believe in? Doing something that matters to you instead of what matters to a company. To actually build a career out of the passions that you have. Or to just start any sort of business. Anything that's not part of that 9 to 5 wage slave system would be great. But this is much easier said than done. It's really difficult to make that transition. Most people, including myself, don't really have a choice. We follow a simple rule. Work like a robot, get paid, survive. Repeat cycle until..death.

No, I don't want to spend my remaining life just working like a robot, paying bills and die. I want to explore the jungles of Brazil. I want to see Europe, the Great Wall, the Pyramids. I want to see the northern lights, Aurora Borealis. I want the freedom to decide when to go on a spontaneous road trip with my family. I want to go on a bike ride to Thailand with my buddies. I want to have enough time to record a full album instead of a single song. I want to make more Youtube videos. I want to take piano lessons. There is so much I want to do in this life but doing any of them seems impossible given the current circumstances. Freeing myself from this system has kinda been my secret fantasy these past few years. If only I had the money to start my own business. If only my Youtube channel would blow up and actually provide me with some side-income, that would be really awesome. Until I find a way or solution, I will remain this hopeless slave robot whose soul slowly dies from within.

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